My Only Hope

Father- forgive my sins for they are many
Calm all my fears for they are taking over
I fight back when I can’t see a way out.
Right now all I see is black- ebony.

Where are you, why can’t I see the way?
Where am I? Stepping into the grey…
Please help me, I’m so alone and afraid
You’re my only hope, I have no other
No other, no other way to go!

Please help me Lord, I’m failing again
Every time I think I’ve won, I fail
My desperate heart is tired and alone
Where can you be? You said I’d not be forsaken!

Is it possible – is it probable- You never left me here?
Could it be I wandered away on my own?

Now I see You, even the first step of the way.
Here am I, stepping into the day…
Please help me, I know I’ll fail again
You’re my only hope, I have no other
No other, no other way to live!

Hold Me

It’s Friday night and here I sit again
Wanting to be free from lonliness and anxiety

I want more , more than you can know
Relationships or even friendships with a door
I’m getting older and these nights leave me cold
Arms are empty, heart is hurting and
I’ve nothing, no nothing, once more

Father hear my cry -do you know my hearts desire?
Wanting to be loved by someone
And be held tight by the arms of that special guy…

Father hold me because until that day
This lonely heart will only have your arms
To warm my lonely nights
Father wipe away these tears!
Show me how to be content
With the love you have for me!

I want more, my heart longs for romance novels,
Movie specials, false reality.
Show me how to turn around,
Knowing you are constant even through the
Singles battleground.

Once again, I lay it all down,
Knowing you will heal my hurt and hold me tight
And make me completely yours.

Father hold me because until that day
This lonely heart will only have your arms
To warm my lonely nights
Father wipe away these tears!
Show me how to be content
With the love you have for me!

M. Ruth Smith
2004

Crying

Crying tears of pain
I’m calling
Hurting from the stain
Of sin
Calling out while still
Wandering
Father, do you hear me?

Stubborn soul of mine
Is searching
Looking for some answers
To help me
Thinking there are no
Possibilities
Jesus, can you save me?

Blackened, hardened heart
Is breaking
Broken beneath a heavy
Load of care
No longer able to
Withstand it
Spirit, can you heal me?

I’m a sinner, broken and bleeding
I’m a helpless wandering soul
Can you hear me because I’m silent
Someone please hear my cry

As I go through life
There is no one to listen
Father if you can, break away
My wall and JESUS, Oh dear JESUS
Set me Free!

Freed at last I am
Opened
Bursting at the seams with
Stories to tell
How I’ve gone from old to
New in Jesus
Jehovah, you are God!

People all around
Please listen
Answer the call you
Hear within
Jesus is calling you
Closer and closer
Mankind, do you hear Him?

Broken now I’m
Whole again
Bleeding now I am
Saved
Sinner am I but thanks
To Grace
Shepherd, I am yours!



M. Ruth Smith
2004

Greatness
Humility
Power
Baby
Creator
Created…

You would say that these are contradictions of terms- Greatness vs. Humility, Power vs. Baby, Creator vs. Created. I call them a firm description of the God I worship. JESUS!

Greatness- Jesus is greatness to the fullest extent. The ONE who knows all, can do all, and is everywhere at once. Humbled Himself with the greatest humility ever known, enough so that every year we celebrate His humility in the form of His birth. So humble that his mother had to change him and wipe his nose. Imagine the great big God who holds the world in His hand in the form of a baby!

Power- Jesus has all power. Kings, queens, presidents have an amount of power, enough to change laws of their countries, and other things. But God has enough power to change the laws of gravity and relativity. This much power in the form of a baby, a helpless little one in need of his mother’s care.

Creator- Jesus created everything you see around you, including you! The whole earth is full of His glory. Even the skies tell of his handiwork. Then became a created man. Fully God and fully man. Such a concept I don’t think I’ll ever understand.

Every year we celebrate Jesus’ birth; every year we forget why we celebrate. After Christmas we tend to go back to our normal lives forgetting what it is that made it so special. The feelings of love, joy and peace, the smiles on stranger’s faces are back to the frowns, coldness and anger. Why? Because, we forget that what he came for was not to give us a time for presents and treats, but it was the beginning, the beginning of proving his love and compassion for us.

These words aren’t contradictions, and they are not just a description, They ARE PROOF. Look at what He did; He gave up everything. Greatness, power, the throne of heaven all of it to come to this imperfect, dusty, mean and nasty earth, so that you and I could know how much He truly loves us.

You see, because He came as a created baby in ultimate humility and perfection, He was able to go to the cross to pay the ultimate sacrifice. He died there that day, a painful, slow and humiliating death.

Here are two more words for you- Life and Death. Another contradiction? NO! Because Jesus died on Calvary, He was able to rise again three days later defeating the power over death. Giving you and I the chance to be saved from eternal death. This is what we should be celebrating, this is what should make us peaceful and fill us with joy!
Eternal life to be spent with this God who loves us that much!!

So these are words that are normally never used together, but isn’t it wonderful that we can use them to describe our God and Savior?!
Written 2004